..::im missin' da old me::..

2009-09-28T19:59:00.002+08:00

weekends.

for the working population, weekends are precious, happy and relaxing.
the last weekend i had in particular was pretty emotional, but set me thinking forward.

i had attended a wedding solemnisation on saturday and a funeral on sunday.
it was like a fast forward of an ordinary life.

saturday's wedding was a young friend's. she was young and it came pretty sudden, but i was happy for her, reason being she found her true one, the best (most suitable for her) out of all that has crossed her path. everyone gathered, mingled, there were laughters and smiles all around. that made it blissful.

sunday, however, was a different phase of life, which unfortunately, we had difficulty coming to terms to. grandaunt was, apart from granny, one of the kindest souls i have ever met in my life. they would never harm anyone, and was always too eager to care and give. she was almost a decade younger than my granny, and they used to be close. she had promising sons who had established their own families, and most of all, a loving husband who was with her thru thick and thin, in sickness and in health, and even now, till death and everything about her was still deeply embellished in his heart. her sickness was a blow to them, her suffering was pain to them, and her death was a dilemma & shock to them, because on one hand, they wanted her to be relieved of all pain, but above all, they did not want to lose her.

granduncle had spoken to me and talked to me about cherishing my parents, and more importantly, the granny i love the most.. he said i would have to go thru this someday, even if she could live till she was 200, with sickness and pain and age setting in, no one man would feel happy. and that made me realise that ever since i had started moving out, i have not been visiting her very regularly. anyone who knew my grandma would know that she loved me the most. she stayed up till i fell asleep each night because she knew i would be afraid, she woke me up for school every morning, and she cared for me more than she cared for herself. that is so selfless that i tear just thinking of her, and i know that she hasnt been in the best of health in recent years.

and i know, i wouldnt want to regret not visiting her enough or not having the chance to treat her well now that i am more able to, just like how grandaunt just left swiftly, quietly, only leaving us with her legacy.

rest in peace, grandaunt. it pains me simply recalling how still and serene you look now, and thinking that i will not be able to see you ever again.

2009-08-16T01:24:00.008+08:00

this came sort of, timely :p

im so gonna catch it!

and another title i like :)

it came across my mind today,

that selfless love exists but rare.

and for the three women,

my granny, my mum and my aunt,

they have loved me unconditionally and very much selflessly,

that sometimes i am guilty for taking them for granted.

they would sacrifice a huge portion of their assets without expecting any returns,

love you even for your shortcomings,

listen when you talk,

trust and respect your choices,

always entitle you to be on the receiving end,

and simply the ones who dash for the drumstick on the plate of chicken and thrust it on your plate.

i really love them so.

in the wink of an eye,

gone are the school days. :(

having a lot of mixed feelings lately,

good to bum ard but tired of looking for a job,

and when you finally have an offer, you dont really want to begin.

i wish i was still a student :(

for the next few mths, no more bumming :(

and this phase of life made me cherish those ppl even more,

for i noe every bit of their love made me go on till today,

and not everyone is willing to give selflessly.

2009-07-23T13:08:00.002+08:00

wc forwarded this meaningful and almost very apt article to me via email which i thought i should post it here to serve as a reminder as well as sharing with whoever is fated to read this ;)

This is Adrian Tan's speech at the convocation of students (class of 2008) at the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information (NTU).
Adrian Tan is a litigation partner at Drew & Napier LLC.

LIFE AND HOW TO SURVIVE IT
I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address.
It's a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation.

I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.
My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one.
She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living.
She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator.
Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are.
I make my living being disagreeable.
Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home.
That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.
And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men:
when you've already won her heart, you don't need to win every argument.
Marriage is considered one milestone of life.
Some of you may already be married.
Some of you may never be married.
Some of you will be married.
Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times.
Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation.
The end of education.
You're done learning.
You've probably been told the big lie that "Learning is a lifelong process" and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters' degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on.
You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers.
Don't you think there is some measure of conflict of interest?
They are in the business of learning, after all.
Where would they be without you?
They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they're wrong.
The bad news is that you don't need further education because your entire life is over.
It is gone.

That may come as a shock to some of you. You're in your teens or early twenties.
People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old.
That is your life expectancy.
I love that term: life expectancy.
We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people.
But I'm here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy.
We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino.
It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long.
We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless.
There's very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup.
Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.
Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years.
Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you'll have another 40 years to go.
Four decades in which to live long and prosper.
Bad news. Read the papers.
There are people dropping dead when they're 50, 40, 30 years old.
Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation.
They would be very disappointed that they didn't meet their life expectancy.
I'm here to tell you this.
Forget about your life expectancy.
After all, it's calculated based on an average.
And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations.
You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family.
You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you.
And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.
If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself.
You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people.
I have nothing against average people.
But no one should aspire to be them.

And you don't need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess.
Life's a mess.
You are not entitled to expect anything from it.
Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end.
Life happens, and you have no control over it.
Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment.
Your degree is a poor armour against fate. *Exactly.

Don't expect anything. Erase all life expectancies.
Just live. Your life is over as of today.
At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be,
you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look.

This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up.
No one knows.
What does this mean for you?
It is good that your life is over.
Since your life is over, you are free.
Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.
Work is anything that you are compelled to do.
By its very nature, it is undesirable.
Work kills.
The Japanese have a term "Karoshi", which means death from overwork.
That's the most dramatic form of how work can kill.
But it can also kill you in more subtle ways.
If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there's nothing left.
A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

*** There's a common misconception that work is necessary.
You will meet people working at miserable jobs.
They tell you they are "making a living". No, they're not.
They're dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful. ***

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity.
Work makes you free.
The slogan "Arbeit macht frei" was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps.
Utter nonsense.
** Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

***Resist the temptation to get a job.
Instead, play.
Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again.
You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often.
Soon, that will have value in itself. ***
I am enjoying my job.. not 100% of the time, but most of the time.. as compared to office work.. I think I would be much happier continuing this job.....
I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator.
I enjoy it and I would do it for free.
If I didn't do that, I would've been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction - probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do?
You will find your own niche. I don't imagine you will need to look very hard.
By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do.

In fact, I'll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions.
By this time you should know what your obsessions are.
If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.
Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession.

Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm.
If you don't, you are working.
Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication.
To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth.
I'm not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things.
The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth.

Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating.
There is also great skill.
Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences.
It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.
In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it.
That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.*

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth.
I now say this to you: be hated.
It's not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you?
Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many.
That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.
One does not have to be evil to be hated.
In fact, it's often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one's own convictions.
It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions.
Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average.
That cannot be your role.
There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself.
Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.
I didn't say "be loved".
That requires too much compromise.
If one changes one's looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.
Rather, I exhort you to love another human being.
It may seem odd for me to tell you this.
You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation.
That is false.

Modern society is anti-love.
We've taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings.
It is far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise.
Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance.
It is hard work - the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits.
There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness.
In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way.
We learn the true worthlessness of material things.
We celebrate being human.
Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person.
Despite popular culture, love doesn't happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor.
It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming.
It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain,
and the body is less important than the heart.
You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated.
You are not doing it to be loved back.
Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone.
You either don't, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology.
It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don't work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.
You're going to have a busy life.
Thank goodness there's no life expectancy.

2009-05-27T00:07:00.002+08:00

and YES i am very very bothered.

casual conversation ignited the very frustration in me.
whats in a clique that judges,
that everyone has an unspoken desire to dissolve,
voyeurism present,
and pretence permeating?

complex complex complex.
afraid to thrash, unafraid of hurting.
is that the proposed hegemony introduced by Gramsci,
a dominant discourse path chosen by members of it,
or are people plain too skeptical and assume too much like the tabloids?

it has to be realised that its either make, or break.
in between is just being a Pharisee.

let's thrash, game for that?

2009-05-23T03:22:00.002+08:00

~~12 may mgt maths~~
~~15 may mgt science mtds~~
~~20 may orgn theory:interdisciplinary approach~~
~~21 may corporate finance~~

12 jun strategy

why o' why the outlier? :(

2009-04-07T02:34:00.001+08:00

let the happy memories sweep the bad ones away.

2009-04-07T02:30:00.001+08:00

LIFE IS A GIFT

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.

He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a Gift
生命是一份禮物

2009-03-16T16:17:00.002+08:00

"To err is human, to forgive, divine."
~ Alexander Pope

sometimes the world isnt ideal, and from watching the 90s mediacorp drama, i sometimes wish everything else was as simple and rosy.
perhaps technological improvements also has its demerits.

somehow, i still believe that deep down, if everyone does their bid, be less judgmental, more forgiving, the world would be closer to ideal.

very soon, i'm gna try to evict hearsay bit by bit.
hopefully i'll be able to release myself from the prison in my heart.
wad impedes this is knowing that what one can do is only that much.
and i guess thats the mere amount of courage i own, for now.

please start to study, u need to graduate!

2009-03-12T12:57:00.005+08:00

this place is getting dusty, i still cant access it with my lappy, and not much inspiration these days.

seems like d exams are round the corner, and past two years of slacking really made me very immune to exams. somehow, certain concerned people have tried to make me study with them, but to date im only done with 2 chapters! how fast is that! i guess the momentum is pretty hard to attain!

seeing ppl complete their modules one by one does not help..

if only i werent so easily distracted.

and as i was reading a magazine yesterday, i was thinking about the inner voice we always have when we are thinking, or reading thru something. so i wondered if there was indeed such a "voice" present, and i made some interesting discovery!

Internal monologue, also known as inner voice, internal speech, or stream of consciousness is thinking in words. It also refers to the semi-constant internal monologue one has with oneself at a conscious or semi-conscious level.
Much of what people consciously report "thinking about" may be thought of as an internal monologue, a conversation with oneself. Some of this can be considered as speech rehearsal, and it seems to be that the internal monologue is generally in the native language of the person concerned.
An internal monologue may be consciously used in order to organize thoughts to solve problems or keep track of a long list. More mysterious is subconscious internal monologue, which is thought to be used in long term memory and dreams.

so when we think or read, is that our inner voice within us?

is it 'spoken' generally in our own physical voice?

does it necessarily coincide with our gender?

i guess all these remains a mystery.

but another interesting excerpt from a website kinda gave me an idea why i could be such a slow reader:

One way to save time, the authors suggest, is to read more quickly.

To do that they firstly suggest reading without using your inner voice.
"When we first learnt to read we were encouraged to speak the words aloud so that our teacher could check that we'd got each one right before we moved on. As we mature, we internalise that voice, so we still hear it in our heads. But this inner voice is not necessary in our reading; in fact it reduces our reading speed to around talking speed..."

Now the only time I can read without hearing the words in my head is when I'm not really attending to what I'm reading - you know those occasions when you keep having to read the same paragraph over and over because you're not paying attention. You're reading the words but their meaning just isn't going in because you're not listening to what you're reading. But that's just my take - what do you think? Can you read without listening to the words in your head?

i find it hard to, can u?

and yes ive become a year wiser, hopefully lol.

BIGTHANKYOU for those who made my day and wished me! :D

2009-02-07T02:25:00.006+08:00

i guess i've changed.

sometimes i feel im nt myself anymore.

i feel i've lost myself in the past.

where there were no frills, no fears, no nothing.

i've felt down and out the most for the past close to three years.

environment certainly brings out a lot in an individual.

i see the real world in school.

i feel sad losing people i once cherished the most, and probably still deep down.

it gets sadder when you try to convince yourself they wont do it to you,

and yet, always, the world is never ideal.

hopefully i'll be able to graduate this year.

and even better if sometimes wounds arising from accidental mishaps can cure itself,

but that seems to be more impossible than the impossibility theorem.

and yea, i wanna quit indulgence. stop.

to the gossipshit and skelby dears, will event blog when im feeling less lethargic!

2009-01-05T09:07:00.000+08:00

i guess the reversing of an adjusted biological clock is not an easy feat.
besides, weekend lectures add on to the fatigue.

supposed to have an 830 class this morn,
and my mind just didn't want to give way to that 715 alarm,
the snoozed 724 alarm,
the bro 730 alarm,
and i woke at 740.

but the fatigue didnt wear off as i strode to the bus stop.
and all the buses seemed so packed.

so i took a u-turn.
and im home. :(

“My mind is troubled, like a fountain stirred;
And I myself see not the bottom of it.”
-Shakespeare

2009-01-04T13:13:00.011+08:00

it is said that time heals all wounds. (albeit leaving a scar)

im beginning to believe that its quite true,

but is it that our feelings towards something fades,

or rather we have forgotten the emotional hurt?

we could all just be escapists.

a couple going through a divorce,

a depressed teenager,

friends having differences,

losing someone dear,

anger towards another,

disappointment towards expectations placed,

facing criticisms,

the strong feelings diminish with time.

but somehow, tiding thru it is painful.

and thats usually because it matters.

09...

is hopefully a new beginning,

a better year. :)

went for the vivo countdown with xuannie bee ktt and ll. :)

the place was so crowded they had to control the flow even at the escalators!

stayed out till dawn doing nothing but chatting :)

skelby will continue to stay strong :)

and the tranquility of my neighbourhood at dawn was so mesmerising..

the first peek of mr. glaring sun felt so warm and special.

and then there was the passing of a very belated and appreciated 21st gift and dinner :)

a very precious meeting, for we never really spoke face-to-face.

the last moments of 08 were spent eventfully as well.

there was a festive xmas feast at home,

the skelby xmas chalet,

the taiwan trip,

meeting of mh and sm at ntu,

cs' bday celebration,

mich's siloso celebration,

and the list goes on. :)

for all the ups and downs, joy and pain, love and hate

we just have to embrace it because it will pass with the passing of time. :)

i've been having some probs accessing fb and blogger and have to use sis' lappie so most pics wil be up on fb. :)

2008-11-26T13:01:00.002+08:00

it feels so heartening to know that samaritans still exist,
here in our hot sunny little island.

was late for strategy lect yday,
and decided to cab down to sch.
the cab fare turned out to be 12bucks plus,
and i only had a 5dollar and 50 dollar bill in my wallet,
to which the uncle had no change.
and so,
he took 5 dollars from me,
gave me his no,
and told me to make payment today.

i am still in awe of his trust in humanity.
and i thank him for this kind little deed. :)

2008-11-23T01:49:00.002+08:00

life's lessons indeed are experiences to learn from.

friendship used to, and still, means a whole lot to me.
as long as someone asks and it is within my means,
i would do whatever i can to help the person.

perhaps i've been handicapped in certain aspects of life,
a tad more than the rest,
that is why i tend to treasure people and things alike very much.

however, there is just a threshold to everything.
there are people you try to regard as friends,
and for years,
you realise that they turn to you only in need.
they do not trust you like friends would.

at times,
i keep wondering why i just cannot say no to such ppl.
and in spite of trying hard to emotionally detach myself to them,
the moment they can just so simply hurt me again,
makes me so down and out.

on many occasions,
ppl ard who've been observing the situation calls me stupid,
because no matter how i hide at home and cry my heart out,
those inflicting the hurt will never bother,
probably enjoying their lives some corner on earth.

too many problems,
just one me.
after the tears,
i jus have to be stronger.
if not for me,
if not for those who love me,
i have to take responsibility of my own imperfection.

so to you,
whether you may read this or not,
close to 3 years of hurt should be more than enough.
i believe you can jus touch your conscience and ask yourself wad has been done.
if you wanna be perfect strangers,
so be it.
if you refuse to think in my shoes,
then i cant do anything abt it.
please dont hurt anyone anymore.

and that was such a regretful innocent lunch i had.

2008-11-05T21:45:00.002+08:00

swinging mood.
inconceivably down.
yet i dun really know why.

sth's very wrong with my laptop and i cannot access blogger, fb, etc..
so here am i stuck in my bro's room using his lappie,
feeling frustrated, and lousy, and the urge of wanting to cry is just so strong.

i have failed in so many aspects.

i am feeling pain physically and emotionally.
everything is just so rough now.

but i am on the other hand happy to have that shoulder to lean on.
take my pain away please.

2008-10-24T02:41:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st mich! (:

heres to my laopo of approximately 7 years.

from the sharing of prefectorial duties to orange bowls in sn,

then the stargazing of hohoho and cwp in cj,

and subsequently the bond still remained so strong. :)

love you!

and a big thank you to jiayi, kaitiantian, qin shou and monkeyku dears for being such loyal readers! :p

2008-10-21T11:09:00.009+08:00

just back from a korea trip last week with my family. :)

self-declared hols can take on a toll esp since its just the beginning of the semester.

:( boo. theres so much to do.

nevertheless, september and october were definitely fulfilling.

alrights, mich just made me a fb addict,

so most of the pics are up there.

but theres one thats just gonna be posted here,

though i doubt anyone reads my blog anymore,

my lovely kaitiantian's 21st :)

firstly it was the clique's,

then with her at house of briyani(yums) :p ,

then with benice at roof terrace cafe,

and lastly, amei's concert!

she rocked totally! ((:

(p.s.: it was the 1st concert she attended of someone she liked, prior to that it was ah du's etc.)

HAPPY 21st KAITIANTIAN LOVE ((:

2008-09-22T01:24:00.003+08:00

mich!!!!!!
that was total sabo!
facebook is kinda complicating!

anw chee, i havent been MIA.
just not online only!
how are you!
i will find one day to chat with or skype u! :)

had breakfast at cartel on a bright sunday morning with mich & peg.
SATC style. muahaha. :b
kinda loved it!

anyhows,
weichee we took this photo for you!

MISS YA!!

and skelby updates soon! (:

2008-09-10T10:52:00.004+08:00

today is the sixth day im having a really high fever ranging from the 38s to 40s.

feels like a torture since its on and off,

makes me real lethargic, weak and dependent.

on top of that, i seem to get easily surprised and shocked by every lil thing.

and i keep waking up at 4am for no reason.

went to a second doc last night who prescribed medicine for me.

lets hope il get better tonight or il end up someplace else.

anyhows,

saw these pics on an email attachment and it kinda jolted up my apetite a little.

looks so innovative,

say if someone brings it here,

it'd prolly be a doughnut vs bao war.

these baos seriously look like sth i wanna try,

at least for now.

and suddenly i get reminded of my taiwan trip yr end..

fever fever pls go away.... :(

2008-09-05T12:20:00.011+08:00

it was finally time to say goodbye to maybank.

it wasnt as easy as i initially thought,

but as what someone said,

we're continuing our legacy somewhere else. (:

its rather hard to get used to life w/o these fun ppl,

us rushing for work when we're late,

having breakfast at 4th floor,

thking of where to have lunch after breakfast,

emailing each other when we're just sitting next to each other,

birthday celebrations,

cam-whoring,

opening mails together,

calling customers,

keying in apps,

photocopying and establishing a war with the jamming machine,

going for toilet trips(which took more than 20 mins :p ),

our long lunch,

and sometimes,

dinner. (:

the 0845 to 1815 period had kinda become a routinisation for all of us,

yet, we had to learn how to say goodbye to pursue our own interests in life.

no matter wad, we'd still be friends,

and that is, for life. (:

2008-08-17T12:26:00.003+08:00

went for esprimere chalet yday evening.

the freshies are really not bad and im pretty sure they had loadsa fun,

of cos not without some flour. :p

i better go repair my cam soon!

gary the pro photographer had to snap 5 times to get one shot. :(

2008-08-13T11:09:00.003+08:00

sometimes when your body is overworked,

your immune system fails you and you fall ill.

you brush it aside thinking that it will get better as long as you watch wad you eat and rest.

but it doesnt happen.

so the last resort is to visit a doctor, of cos being dragged to.

and then, youre left at home realising its been a long time since you had such a nice break. :)

from the time when holidays started,

so many things have happened in my life.

many first times, many successes and failures, and lessons learnt.

life is really like a roller coaster ride, with its ups and down, fast paced, yet a short break to let you thk for a moment and then you move on again.

if theres one thing ive learnt in maybank,

its that the strength of an affinity you can have with anyone is not built over time.

ive made qt a few good frens, even those who sincerely wishes you well even though youve barely known each other for 2 months.

now that this batch of temps are leaving tgt by the end of this month,

its kinda sad cos we've already gotten used to each other and our workload,

yet, life has to move on.

life is also made intriguing by the small little events that happen.

one of those is watching the fireworks display,

anticipating and embracing every moment with the cheering crowd,

and even forgetting to take out your camera for a shot.

its over b4 you realise it.

but the moments are savoured in your heart deeply.

for now, its back to my SATC & Friends which bro & cousin had so thoughtfully imported as my yet another lovely belated 21st present. (:

2008-08-09T07:55:00.023+08:00

yays its time to finally update again.. :]

its gonna be a long post & i dunno how long i'd take to upload everything too but here goes. :)

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it was the second friday after work der jiz and i had dinner together, albeit missing out on wenwei agn.

had a sumptuous dinner at central followed by cam-whoring at clarke quay.

derryn even went up to a tourist to get him to help us take a group foto! lol.

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its amazing how an ex colleague of barely 2 months from 3 years ago remembers you and invites you to her wedding. :)

i hope she immerses in happiness always. :)

jiz accompanied me to her wedding and thereafter to surprise chee with her early 21st card. :)

we had a yummy spread at Nihon Mura in the revenue house and yes it was value for money. :)

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because my one and only gf was set to leave for her exchange programme in europe, gossipshit met up to pre celebrate her 21st :)

of cos it was more camwhoring and laopo i cant find my warranty to repair my cam! :(

and yes we truly hope she liked everything we've planned and gotten for her. :)

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wenwei finally joined us for dinner. lol. we went for sakae teppanyaki at bugis to celebrate derryn's 23rd. (look how happy she was!) :)

we then led miss pHD to j co. whr we surprised her and despite all the hiccups, she did not apparently even realise that ww was standing beside her with a cake and thought that we really went off for a long time to do respective things. :p

lol.

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chee finally had to go.

i didnt noe why but i felt like crying.

but i managed to fight back the tears.

yes il see her again by next year. (:

it would come very soon, right?

and after that the remaining of gossipshit had breakfast at bk.

so reminds me of the gang of frens in SATC sitting tgt and sharing everything under the sun.

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SKELBY had a cake outing at nydc.

also, shopping!! (:

loadsa laughter kept the bond strong & the friendship going & growing :)

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loretta had a dance performance at nyp & i went down with teck to catch it.

i can only say it was fabulous even though i am not a person who can appreciate or even dance. :)

i like the kinda atmosphere where everyone is just so touched and elated after the performance,

like youve delivered everything well and yet sad that its all over.

thanks for inviting me over. :)

on a lighter note,

byebye ssdc :)

im glad and lucky to have nice instructors,

and the three supportive virgos. :p

thanks sangee for accompanying me and dragging me to learn! (:

and yes, this keeps me going in maybank. :p

2008-07-24T21:39:00.004+08:00

another tiring work trying to juggle work & social life. :)

but ohwells, other than falling sick,everything else is great,

more or less. :p

(but i really hope to cut down on OT!)

anyhows, went baq with peiwen to AJ yday to promote SIM.

a lot of familiar faces, teachers, juniors and even the canteen vendors.

its the first tym i went baq after that tormenting time when i had to accept sth new in life.

and i tot i would never have any pleasant recollections,

but boy, was i wrong.

every nook and corner seemed to store some memories,

waiting for me to unfold and recollect one by one. :)

i still vividly remember skelby sharing this wanton soup and then we were trying to shirk the blame of wetting the table, the fountain where 1604 loved playing at during birthdays, and lots more but shan't publicise here.

wokae so this was the spread pw and i had at aj canteen. :)

then there was lilian's belated 21st steamboat feast just now :)

credits to my nice uncle who sent us to and fro. =)

its super duper value for money considering everything was buffet, there was fried rice & noodles, fried food, ice cream and CHILI CRABS. like wow! lol..

we were trying so hard to live up to the steamboat spirit! muahaha.

xuannie. bee. lucy. me. ktt. (:

let these pics speak for themselves. (:

sure hope everyone had their fill and fun! (:

2008-07-22T01:10:00.002+08:00

it suddenly dawned upon me..
that my one n only girlfren is gonna be outta town in approx 12 days,
and i still haven met up with her.

dun really thk she'll read this,
but i hope she would be happy always,
wherever she is, no matter where,
my wishes are always there for her.

(:

keep smiling sweetheart.

2008-07-19T14:04:00.014+08:00

been staying out till about 3am the past two nights i was literally a panda at work yesterday.
skelby's plans were shelved and so i got to mit up with laopo and peg love on thursday. (:

we met for dinner at damryans and thereafter went to chill with three of laopo's interesting frens at walawala. then we had supper at the roti prata house where laopo's frens were so.. hilarious. lol. like with one believing peg was married and had a kid which she had to feed. all the funny questions tat popped thereafter. and the whole ring talk.

it was a crazy night esp at damryans whr i didnt really know why but the 3 of us just went totally crazy. lol. and then there was walawala where 2 of them were acting like rabbits. muahaha.

i was told to upload the pics by sun or laopo would murder me. haha.
so here it goes. :)

and after a week of hard work, derryn jizson and i went to tpy for a yummy fare at pastamania and after that, KBOX! lol! its been like ages since i stepped into one. considering i used to sing quite often. its kinda amazing how the three of us who met for barely a month managed to hit it off so well. office would be kinda blue w/o these fellow temps, really. (: it was another crazy night with der miss pentium 2 P.hD singing all her nostalgic 80s songs and jiz trying to deal with my constant switching of keys while he was singing.

i really havent had so much fun and laughter for so long.
truly, it energizes. :)

2008-07-14T00:14:00.003+08:00

SKELBY DEARS,
please save your pics from all your cameras for this yr/past yr events which have not been circulated in a thumbdrive/cd and bring it during the next meet up,
probably thurs! ((:

kt and i wil consolidate then pass you all!
loves! (:

2008-07-13T22:44:00.005+08:00

loadsa bad log on blog and im sure monkey is still listening so here goes:

there was xuannie baby's 21st at limbang centre macs on 27/6 and boy we really did have loadsa fun! ((:

skelby sure relived our childhood playing with the "dogs" and all..lol!

pretty xuannie baby was made to model like kungfu panda toos! ((:

and yeah let the pics say out loud how the girls-night-out went. (:

and then we all camped at monkey's. :)

and of cos there was lilian's 21st!

skelby sure had fun at that babe's place esp her pretty pretty pink room where we did sth we used to always do and did best-CAMWHORING! :p

and yes there was loadsa food and i saw my hubby basilia and the pretty happy meal commercial girl and her lovely bro! ((:

sure hope that cutesy lucy had fun!

stayed over with ktt and ohboy im such a deep sleeper it worries. :/

haha but its alright cos im safe in their hands. :p

PS: i thk monkey and lucy cooks really really yummy instant noodles! :)

and today it was tina's 21st :)

haven seen that lovely girl in yearsss... literally.

sangee dear and i went down to her place to surprise her and look how shocked she was!

LOL!

sangee was commenting that she was swaying left and right.

haha!

and yes we shall all catch up soon!

and await some anonymous' party on 3rd sept hopefully! :b

went down to buy doughnuts from that sweet little sister working part time at donut factory thereafter b4 heading down to yangyang's 2nd party. :) its great to hav a sister there cos theres fantabulous staff price! :)

and yes yangyang's 2nd!

he's such a heartthrob.

his smile makes me melt and drool. :p

i was kinda late so i took post bday photos instead.

wahah but they were cute too!

especially his new laptop and potty! :p

its been a bz week at maybank.

haha. and they were saying theres some roadshow over the weekend.

how cool is that!

lol.

and yes over the week managed to catch up with bethia, recruit(yes if youre reading this i agree with pt no 4 of your entry!sorry i fell asleep lol! :b) and zc over dinner/movie. :)

i hope to catch more ppl b4 everyone leaves/becomes busier! :)

2008-07-03T21:15:00.003+08:00

work consumes most of my time and energy,

i feel so like an office lady.

lol.

but like i told ktt,

i will survive. :)

ot-ed till 845 yday..

even after yx came by(i thk he misses the work lol) and told me to just leave on time.

and theres sth with me that i doubt yx wants to see on this page. :p

and thanks to my sweet uncle,

theres sth to be happy abt.

i traded my old lil VAIO FJ for this:

:))

2008-06-30T23:10:00.003+08:00

i had two mentors for three days last week,
and they were really nice and patient.

yixiang told me to say good things about him in my blog,
since he treated me so well
(by giving me a chocolate on his last day,and by not remembering my name -.- )
haha! and josephine gave me two. :p
lol!

but yeah really hes a very nice person to work with,
no OT with him. :b

this is wad he just said:

XiAnG says:
haha... if needs money den muz praise mi until i m e best person on earth
XiAnG says:
u may say i m more handsome den david beckham, richer den bill gates.

:p

2008-06-30T21:35:00.002+08:00

its my fourth working day today =)
and at the very least,
there are really a lot of nice ppl ard. :]

been thinking a lot lately, since bus rides to and fro are pretty long.

a lot of tyms, ppl encounter a lot of problems with human relations simply due to miscommunication and lack of trust.

sometyms, when in doubt, they never question the person themselves.
they choose to put the blame on others just because it is the easiest way out.
or choose to believe in hearsay, which may be distorted in a way or another.
worse of it all, since most issues have got to do with perceptions,
it gets even more distorted.

before anyone accuses anyone,

please get things clear.

ask, or forever maintain your peace.

you and i,

i believe everyone has gone thru that stage.
now its about letting all of it go. :]
and to forgive and forget.

its not easy, but it releases,
and makes your heart smile.

monkey: i will post up the pics when i have more time on hand! (:

2008-06-25T23:49:00.003+08:00

totally shagged.
so much to do,
so much to pick up by friday,
& i have to be so meticulous.
and its only the beginning...

i will persevere :)

cos the opportunity cost is my favourite nhg and another seemingly better offer.
but yea, theres great company.

and yay finally my SATC & narnia. (:

2008-06-19T10:55:00.001+08:00

=) =) =)

all smiles because i really love my lousy timetable.

yes i really do!

2008-06-19T00:06:00.003+08:00

they say a smile goes a mile,

you'll never know when it'd come in handy,

cos it heals not only yourself but to parties you exude it to.

thats why i try to flash it,

whenever i can.

as long as its from the heart,

you'll never feel tired.

it helps you stay strong.

keep smiling. :))

2008-06-18T23:45:00.001+08:00

heart candy =)
skelby would probably know wad i mean.
right, monkey? (:

2008-06-18T23:38:00.003+08:00

Child's Definition of LOVE

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds,
"What does love mean?"

The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen," Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6

"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them." Jenny - age 8

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore," Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine -age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8

Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked him what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

2008-06-18T11:23:00.003+08:00

fuming mad now.
ecr is always like fighting a horrible horrible battle.
and the system sucks totally.
!!!!
night lectures the whole year,
and slots full all of a sudden,
or shutdown period.
i wan DQ, not R!!!

all year threes too-be but some get to book first.

how bad can it get.

im angry and whiny. =(

2008-06-16T13:40:00.003+08:00

bored bored bored.

after all the hectic meetups and holidaying,

it should be time for me to start sourcing for a job.

lol.

met up with sangee dearest.

this came late but thankyou so much. :)

so paiseh to receive birthday gifts after so long. lol.

i love the video loads loads.

made me want to cry. :)

loveyou too!

2008-06-16T02:33:00.004+08:00

there was this really awesome sighting above the money plant outside my abode...

another little creature's nest. :)

had a brief meetup with gossipshit* today after 85798476049723 years.

after yoga with mich laopo. (:

LOL. and these are some photos of our attempts to reform peggy. :b

yes good news from that darling again. woohoo.

and i just realised that my countdown partner chee will be away this/next year. :(((((

so sad!!

can tune in to eason's song this xmas le. :(

and cheerup chee dear..

sometimes we feel strongly for things or ppl around us,

but theres only so much we can do.

time will definitely give you an answer to everything.

also, it was dearest benice(酒鬼)'s 21st celebration yesterday. :))

kt ll and i had qt a bit of fun among ourselves. lol.

she has an amazingly cute conductor daddy.

*something doesn't feel right :p *

*ponders*

*i knew it!* (dodges & sniggers away)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR! (:

flash your beautiful teeth more often!

somehow it led me wondering whether perfect strangers can ever be friends.

they say it is unwritten and unspoken;

felt and not said.

i truly wish it isnt plain affirmation,

and things would just improve.

but how?

haha. even i dont have an answer.

these are some interesting sightings in HK.

lol.

another village :p

adidas with one less stripe on the logo replaced with one additional stripe on the shoe. :p

"tammy" hilfiger

estella's favourite :p

my favourite :)

2008-06-12T01:34:00.000+08:00

Hong Kong hit by severe flooding, two feared trappedPosted: 07 June 2008 1420 hrs

HONG KONG - Streets in Hong Kong were flooded by torrential rain on Saturday, leaving two people feared trapped after a wall collapsed due to the downpour, media reports said.

The Hong Kong Observatory said more than 200 millimetres of rain was dumped in the city overnight which experienced winds of up to 70 kilometres. Two people were rescued after a wall collapsed in the New Territories area of Hong Kong, but firemen were still trying to rescue two others believed trapped, local broadcaster RTHK said. "Because of seriously flooded roads and inclement weather conditions, you are advised to take shelter in a safe place and stay there," the Observatory said in a statement.

The downpour caused severe flooding across some streets of Hong Kong island, an AFP reporter at the scene said. Water was almost up to the windows of parked cars as people rolled up their trousers and waded through knee-deep floods in flip-flops.

Amid thunder and lightning, people tried to continue their journey on foot as water flowed over pavements in the heavily hit western district of Sheung Wan. "This is the heaviest rain I have seen in years," said Edmund Kwan, an office worker, who was waiting for his girlfriend at the nearby MTR (Mass Transit Railway) station.

Shopkeepers stacked sandbags in an effort to keep their businesses watertight. Streets in the city's Wan Chai business district were also under heavy water. The rain caused several delays at Hong Kong's International Airport on Lantau Island, one of the worst-hit spots in the territory, an Airport Authority spokeswoman told AFP. Passengers were advised to contact their airline for more information about their flight. The main road to the airport was closed because of flooding, RTHK said. The city's schools and courts were closed, while childcare centres and elderly services centres were closed to the public, the government said in a statement. Hong Kong is regularly hit by severe rain and even typhoons during the summer months. - AFP/ir

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_asiapacific/view/352542/1/.html

how true! :b
even disneyland was affected.

2008-06-11T17:16:00.000+08:00

2008-06-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

back from my hk trip :)
weather was qt bad but yes i had fun =)
wil post some pics soon.

its rather hard for me to express this openly but im so bothered by it i feel i should.
i always treated you as a really good fren and telling you abt everything,
never ever believing wad others said about you wanting to get close to me.
but i had to find out for myself that you see me in THAT way.
and its hard to accept that fact even up till today.
sometimes i trust too much,
i tell too much.
so you probably find me a burden,
find that im burdening everyone ard me with my grievances or angst.
but you dont understand this is how i choose to let it out,
or i'd go crazy.
sometimes i so wish to tell you how i feel,
how i walked along the streets crying because this is how you see friendship,
at least thats what you see in me,
and it further prevents me from wanting to shower my care on another friend.
no one is made exactly the same way as another,
and if you choose to hate me,
il accept that.
but please do not stab me hard.
thats all i ask for.

marisa: nope its fine sweetheart. i dont need anything.
pei: i just came back from hk! :) howre you?
cs: yupp i will kp trying..

2008-06-05T16:30:00.000+08:00

5 more hours and i have to report at terminal one.
third time in three years but its better than nothing.
lol.

monkey, i wan my haiku! (:
deadline's sunday!

2008-06-03T12:41:00.000+08:00

sometimes no matter how hard you try,
how much effort you put in,
you just cant seem to do it.

some people live their lives never feeling this way.

im so envious,

because things dont always go my way,

no matter how hard i try.

i really did try.

so why cry.

i dont care wad others really think.

cos i noe i gave my all in sth im not good at.

and yet i lack that bit of luck.

if its not this, its just that.

i dont even try to give excuses,

or attempt to give up,

i just keep trying,

but i never make it.

can anyone comprehend?

i cant even swim,

i cant even cycle.

i cant anything.

i cant play games.

so what can i do?

i really dont care how others see me,

but why do ppl whom i love and care for just dont trust me too?

bestie said i lack the glow and id probably have to go thru very rough patches.

yes i am now.

how can i change this........!

this journey of life can be so tiring,

and im so tired.

and to my skelby dears,

im sorry for owing this for so long.

2008-05-25T00:55:00.000+08:00

sometimes its just so heart-wrenching to know.
but i thank god i realised it before its too late.
so its out of pity.
so whats real?

2008-05-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

exams are finally over!

but not too good..

i just made this first decision of the year to walk out of the examination centre,
well knowing that i would fail.

perhaps the happy four frens can stay together for four years.

its like,
i studied more for corporate finance than ibm,
but after crapping and squeezing all my brain juice the first half of the day cos i only started ibm at 10pm last night,
i was just too tired.
i couldnt regurgitate everything,
or rather, anything ive touched in cf.

jus like the hot topic ross signalling..
i was looking at it just moments b4 the paper,
and i still cannot rmb the formula. :(

sigh, i took an hour to decide if i shud just pass and let it go,
or aim for a better score cos i dont want to stick to 34,
and so i left,
the first time in my life.

please dont ask me why.
im just hoping i will not regret.
and i dont think i am,
at least for now.

2008-05-07T17:16:00.000+08:00

"Everywhere I go I'm asked if I think the university stifles writers. My opinion is that they don't stifle enough of them. There's many a best-seller that could have been prevented by a good teacher."
- Flannery O'Connor

2008-05-07T12:51:00.001+08:00

was looking thru some emails i got from grace,
and i found some interesting pics..

this was the "employee of the month" spirit

and this girl from india is the world's tiniest girl.

seems like sometimes as human beings,
we fail to be contented with our lives,
and tend to neglect certain things.

perhaps its just a social trend, which we've conveniently conformed to.

GOODLUCK to everyone who begins with marketing or econs tmr! (:

KISS - Because Im A Girl (english subtitles).mpg

2008-05-06T16:39:00.001+08:00

the other time while passing stuff to chinyee in sch, i heard her mentioning some very touching mtv on youtube, and yes this truly is..

2008-05-06T11:25:00.000+08:00

http://video.mediacorptv.sg/

sweetttt :D

2008-05-06T10:31:00.000+08:00

8 more chapters to read in 2 days,
how possible is that?
how i wish i could have shelly lazarus' brain,
just for thursday.

this year is just so screwed...

nevertheless, to everyone else, jiayou jiayou! (:

2008-05-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

dont really know wad to do or say,

except get well soon.

still believe that the kind will be rewarded.

im praying for him. :)

and i still believe he would stay positive in spite of all adversities.
just like how he nv fails to put a smile across others' faces. :)

some photos i havent posted..

eric's 21st with marisa =)

dinner with bethia=)

mugging/gossiping session with benice! =)

motivation pls come.. im barely half a module done.

ktt: yay after you end on sat lets go watch fannfannfann :) & hotpot culture!

2008-05-01T14:43:00.000+08:00

im just a second-class citizen
im just a second-class citizen
im just a second-class citizen
im just a second-class citizen
im just a second-class citizen
im just a second-class citizen

everywhere, to everyone.

quit trying.
they are a family.
youre just an outcast.
an extra.

i hate it. i detest myself. my life. my everything.
it was traded for my material comfort since i was an infant.
but ive lost more.
now im just a second-class being.

2008-04-22T00:02:00.000+08:00

hehe =)

im back to update. (i get you, benice!)

exams are approaching in approx 17 days,

but this person here whos so lazy and dreadful of exams is nowhr near prepared.

sigh.

please let some motivation come into my life.

anyhows,

there's qt a fair bit to update,

so i shall only post some photos,

if anyone(ever) reads my blog and wants any photos,

pls get from me via msn or tell me. hehe.

(paiseh beni&juu i will send you guys k)

yupps so there's minghao&waileong's belated surprise dinner at pizza hut!

great that the four of us are meeting up agn.

and ohmy, hana still rmbs wad happened last year at coffeeclub! -.-

then there was enwei's 21st celebration at arab street.

it was fab with all the sheesha, food and ppl. :)

benice was such great company except for that photo!!! :(

and there was supper with lucas and sam at 3 diff places in one night.

they managed to find the geylang 豆浆油条 and yes it was yummy! :)

supper with zc at newton circus =)

bethia's bday celebration

yupp thats all for now. haha. :))

jiayou for exams everyone! :)

2008-04-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

if there's one thing i detest,
its parting, or anything close to it.

i feel like letting it all out this instant.
but i know you'll be alright,
you'd just be.

dont say anything foreboding, please.

失去才会懂得珍惜,但我珍惜你..

2008-04-06T12:02:00.000+08:00

woohoo! its her again! ((:

2008-04-04T20:53:00.000+08:00

just caught the channel 8 matchmaking programme for the gen x category.

towards the end,

i still held high hopes that the guy would stick to his choice till the very last.

but i kind of lost this undertaken emotional gamble,

and it means much more.

ktt said that the guy had wavered his choice to allow some leeway for himself,

before he got to witness their appearances.

lol, probably.

superficiality-the talk of so many ppl ard me these days.

some vastly affected,

others dejected, resigning themselves to what they call, fate.

isit instilled in us via socialization,

or has it always been present?

well, it certainly does help cover some quirks you may find in people.

ok, i was just being random. :p

my lovelyindochamp just passed me this just now.

so sweet :D

study hard... haha dont arrow back. :b

2008-04-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

childhood.

this is a big word.

never belittle how this can impact your life.

you may not know or feel it off hand,

but it attacks you subconsciously,

and it is cyclical.

you bring it on, to affect life in later stages,

be it in a positive manner, or simply adversely.

you allow your mental constructs to revolve ard it,

and gradually you are made to believe that you were made this way,

so life pivots on a self-fulfilling prophecy.

(well this is an impt discipline in psychology, sociology, and even marketing! :p)

and like monkey said,

suyee has to be there for suyee when suyee feels alone.

she has to learn how to protect herself,

and build more walls.

okay, back to maslow's hierachy of needs.

(something so close to my heart since lower secondary)

sigh i thk im stuck at the third level.

but i should be happy,

cos some ppl never survive fulfilling the first.

sy will try to be motivated to study!!!

attended wenfu's convo just now,

i guess being able to experience that day itself is a feat.

everyone there was so blessed with love.

whichever aspect, so lucky i felt so happy for them.

but wad can i expect when my turn comes?

(monkey:dont expect! :b)

lol, ok monkey i wont.

nevertheless,

congrats, wenfu & laorenjia! (:

will post the fotos up soon!

p.s.:change is inevitable, but i dont like it. ):

2008-04-03T13:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21ST MONKEY ! :)

thankyou for always being there for me,

whether or not we meet up often.

im glad we shared candies in aj,

and you'll always have me like how i always have you.

loveyou! (:

lets go have ice cream soon. :b

and it was the sn fiesta last sat.

i love my alma mater. (:

the school is as colourful and vibrant as usual.

i love my sn dolls! (:

st nicks just rocks my socks! =)

2008-03-28T11:47:00.000+08:00

its ironic how a (past) bio student took 21years
to realise how essential water really is.
im finally steering towards the recovery path. (i hope)
never had fever dominated my body for this long
nor have i jolted up from sleep for a few mornings from cough.

im feeling better today. :)

and im gonna do some event blogging b4 i thk i
decide to start studying,
as reminded by wenfu, 5 more weeks!
haha, w/o this countdown expert in school,
ive seemed to lost track of tym.

140308 post bday celebration with weilin and brenda

met up with the other 2 musketeers from primary sch.
haha, we're still the same :)
no matter how long we pend in btn b4 meeting up,
nothing ever restricts us from talking abt anything under the sun,
and nv have we felt awkward/uneasy ard each other. :)
loveyou guys! :D

150308 lola's bday surprise

12 midnight and tadah!
a nice durian strudel presented to her. :D
i guess we must hav shocked and surprised her in one way or another. :)
we had fun in the playground whr we were practising music notes..
WAHAHA. :)
hope these memories stay for life.!

180308 amelia's post bday celebration

its miraculous how our bond forged in kindergarten managed to last this long. :)
i remember her as someone who shared her lunchbox with me as a kid,
calling me every night when we were in pre school,
and us crying whenever the other missed school. :)
sometyms i wish we could turn back tym a little. :p
went to watch "sky of love" with her. :)
nice show! :D lets hope our frenship can sustain a lifetime. :)

(just a glimpse of the neoprint we took-lazy to scan! :p )

190308 eri's place

we were there for no special occasion,
just a simple delicious dinner and to play with her imp. :P
one of the simple beautiful things in life.
and i love taking rides from frens,
though it just indicates we're all maturing together. :p

200308 hc amk hub

haha after ME UOL lecture,
we went to have a feast(yes, feast literally) at ichiban.
and i was super tired after lecture i managed to fall asleep,
even though she held on super tightly to me during "Rule # 1".
LOL. :b
more outings, maybe after exams! haha.

210308 sam luc post bday celebration

wad they shipped which didnt come in time for my party could
only be described with one adage that goes, "late but worth the wait". :)
had dinner with them at nydc,
followed by a ride on lucas' car to geylang where we went looking ard... hehe.
thanks doll and bear! :)

220308 cs queenstown

chengsong's belated bday treat at ikea..
haha he always gets into a frenzy whenever his name is mentioned here or on estella's blog. :p
yummy swedish meatballs and poached salmon! :D

okays apart from all these, i've been having lectures or spending half my time recuperating.
LOL.

and item,
it was really great hanging out with you agn that day! :D
dont worry you wont be left on the shelf!
we just have to wait for the right one,

"late but worth the wait"! :b

the UOL CF lecturer was interesting and humorous..

LOL.

see wad i meant. :p

he had to answer the call of nature. :)

yay, 3 UOL lects down within a week, no wonder i fell sick. :p

2008-03-21T08:16:00.000+08:00

this is crap.

i know im the worst person you can ever find on earth.

sorry recruit.

im really sorry.

2008-03-13T01:44:00.000+08:00

adieus to these darlings which have been with me through thick and thin for the past year,
come tomorrow.
:(

and yes handover, though a little untimely.
i will miss you all!

was at aunt's place again,
and this time round,
aunt was teaching me how to cook this really yummy porridge!
:D
(i always leech from yangyang. :b)

so grateful to her cos its really yummy.
im so gonna try it out soon. =p
simple, yet so heavenly.
vegetables and cod fish. -slurps-
aunt was so cute!
she was so excited that i wanted to learn how to cook she bought me one full box of dried scallops.

LOVE HER! :D

and featuring my cute lil imp yangyang!

time flies.
yangyang is going to turn 2 in another 4 months. :b
he runs a lot now!
my cute lil cuzzie. :))

some random shots :D

2008-03-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

prelims are officially over.
yay! (okays im happy though i didnt even go for a single paper)

anyhows, the past month had been really good for me,
and being the sy who believes that thrs equilibrium in everything in life,
im starting to dread the possibility of bad things occuring in my life.
lol. ok im paranoid, i admit.
but ive not been sleeping well,
with the recurring nightmares and all,
though i must admit i have been sleeping quite a lot.
hibernating while others are studying. :b
but wells, trying to kip my spirits up so i will not feel so gloomy and refuse to hit the books again.

turning 21 didnt mean much until a few days ago,
when sudden realisation of me being legally responsible for my own deeds,
being able to view explicit content legally,
and really just stepping into adulthood just struck me.
then suddenly, i just felt so alone.
i was afraid of the impending remaining time i have that will past so swiftly,
afraid of everything withering,
afraid of losing people.
but then again, i know i shouldnt be so pessimistic.
cos this is a phase in life.
ok sy, pls grow uppp!

i thought the release of A level results would not impact me in any way ever again,
especially since it had been two years.
but i guess its just going to haunt me.
that was really a turning point for many many aspects in my life.
not the results,
but wad led to it.

also, i just wanna leave this for an anonymous fren. :)
i was really sad to hear abt it,
cos i really feel it is difficult for a girl to be so brave,
as to muster up such courage. :D
im really glad you faced your inner self,
and that itself is most impt.
ohgod i feel like such a wimp now.
no goals,
no nothing.
lol.

on a lighter note,
i met up with 少文(rinalldo) & 乙玄(marisa) today for a meal in town. :))
it was like a mini belated celebration for rin's bday in feb. :p
kinda sad that they gonna be away for a short while from tmr,
both gg back indo.
but yes we did spend quality time. :)
and yeah KTV soon! :D

2008-03-07T13:37:00.000+08:00

2008-03-07T01:11:00.000+08:00

hehe. suyee trulyyyyyy enjoyed her 21st birthday.

from the bottom of her heart.
a big THANKYOU to everyone who played a part in making this possible,

from those who attended my party,

to those who wished me,

and gave me surprises along the way.

i feel loved, and thats all thats worth living for, really.

i love all of you! to bits and pieces :)

had an advanced celebration on 29feb at changi cottage. :)

guess the photos will speak for themselves. :))

a big thank you to ktt and my bro for the planning,

chee sangee michlaopo peg for inviting,

skelby, chee & mich for deco,

monkeyku and estella for the make up,

granny for her yummylicious chicken rice and beehoon,

uncle for helping me direct traffic and all,

and all those who came, & made it possible. :)

THANKYOU! :D

and for the actual day,

bestie ching estella teck & i went to the no signboard restaurant.

thanks for the yummylicious treat fantastic4(minus me!)! :D

and bestie and dear girl, thanks for the brownie! :)

went down to chinatown thereafter to meet gossipshit and kt with ts at food street.

was too full to munch anything so yeah,

sorry guys! :D

went down to swensens after that to have ice cream,

and did all the jumpshots with the balloons.

LOL.

and the last hour of the day was spent with loretta jeremy and ts.

jeremy drove us down to geylang but there wasnt anything much,

so we headed down to siglap instead.

haha. the camwhore landed everyone home around 2plus. :b

thanks guys for that surprise. :)

im usually not very expressive or good with words,

but yes i was truly touched and happy.

never felt that way for eons. :D

and so sy was jubilant.

she had decided to start studying after this whole "festive" season,

i.e., 6th march.

she woke up at 12pm and hola,

recruit kong had a fun job offer which had good money and company,

cus ktt wanted to come too!

so we all went down to SPH to do a one day job.

den went with ktt to watch "the leap years". :)

lovely show-made me realise that wad they mentioned is true.

esp the part whr someone said that theres a right person in each and every one,

just that you'll never know when or whether you'd encounter the person.

:))

LOL. i shall begin tmr. :p

p.s.: shall post the pics of the actual day in my next entry. :p

2008-02-24T20:21:00.000+08:00

the leap year.

it comes in every four years,

and it was never that significant for me,

except this year,

im gonna host my advanced 21st celebration. :)

i guess the recurring nightmares didnt help,

but something jolted my tingling joy and excitement today.

my first two 21st bday gifts. =)

two lovely bags.

one from aunt,

and another from uncle and wife.

i really appreciate their thoughtfulness and love. :)

such sweet surprises.

i love. :)

and thanks jiayi dear for that surprise camomile tea sachets. :)

hope you enjoyed your botak jones celebration! =)

i sincerely hope everything would unfold itself by friday.

gosh.

and chee dear, i know its been troublesome cos i never posted my wishlist online.
(cos i found it quite crappy. :( )

but yeah for your benefit,

i thk im getting a DS and a wallet already.

:)

so yeah.

and i want a card.

a huge one, small font. :)

thats my wish. haha. :p

and im so thankful to kaitiantian and my bro,

not forgetting gossipshit and sangee. :)

LOVEYOU GUYS.
i noe u all noe it. :)

2008-02-23T02:18:00.001+08:00

been having bz days lately.
been feeling moody lately too.
i guess i understand how some of my frens feel nearing their birthdays now.
perhaps i took a wrong step.
perhaps ive changed.
but like chengsong said,
no matter how old you are,
wads more impt is your maturity level.
and thrs nothing wrong with crying,
or tearing shud you not be able to cry.
i gather that talking to your subconscious mind seriously helps a lot.
its terrifying, but really helpful.

all the lectures have come to a close,
and come next wk,
its prelims and full day weekday weekend revision lectures.
and exams.
sigh.
i feel so frustrated,
not exactly because of all the things coming my way,
but rather, disappointment over many things.
and i can only relate how i feel by visiting the temple,
cos only they understand.

sometimes it rli hurts when ppl u trust still dont understand you.
they thk youre rli that moronic,
and dont even know wads going on in your own life.
sometyms noone but yourself is clear abt wads gg on in your own life,
and youre just trying to face it.
trying to be realistic.
so wad if i dont have dreams?
i just dont like to lead myself on.
and if you dont like that,
you can keep it to yourself,
thankyou very much.
and period. pls dont talk abt this anymore.

and bz bz bz bz wk next wk.
i just hope that that nightmare of mine doesnt materialise.
and a big thankyou to all those who are willing to come! :)

2008-02-08T02:18:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year! :)

there was a girl who always looked forward to cny eve,
bcos that was the only night where her father,
alongside with her mum and sis and sometimes bro,
would happily immerse in the festive occasion,
squeeze among the preposterous congregation in chinatown,
and feel ecstatic over the economical purchases,
as well as lovely sightings of the fireworks, firecrackers and colourful confetti.

the confetti, simply made her eyes light up in bliss.
she never said so, but she really loved her family.

she very well knew that her condition had encumbered
her family&friends for the past 4 yrs,
but like any other girl, she longed for happiness.
she longed to be able to receive as much as she could give, love.
it was not just once or twice that she had been sneered for her condition.
ppl ard her could not and still cannot accept what had become of her,
including herself.

she tried ways and means to get better,
but always gets weighed down by her failed attempts sometimes.
and it had to occur again, this cny eve.
she told herself she would not cry over this agn,
she fought back her tears,
she heard her dad murmuring,
"带你出门是世界上最麻烦的事情".
and this would probably be imprinted in her heart again,
even though she knew he may have blurted it out at the spur of the moment,
or whether or not he just wanted to rant.
she doesnt deserve to impede others' lives anymore.

to you who will probably never read this:
i dunno why im so affected by you. sometimes i wish i could just ignore you.
but i hope time can give me an answer to everything.
and i know time will.
sometimes i really dunno wad is on your mind.
but i am confused myself.
so you either stay and not play games with me,
or exit my life.

p.s.: rec and skelby, i will post the photos up real soon. (:

2008-01-28T12:40:00.000+08:00

to loretta*:
thanks for accompanying me to the clinic when i didnt even hav strength to walk. :)
here's ur reward :b

look how heartily they were laughing! :D

2008-01-26T02:09:00.000+08:00

had been kinda like an emotional rollercoaster ride over the week.
perhaps i didnt expect life to be so intricate,
or that im just too naive..

as the Earth is rotating,
so many other things are changing.
but only time will tell, and it does tell.

till today did i realise that despotic hypocrites do exist despite you treating him/her as a trustworthy fren.

2008-01-24T00:48:00.001+08:00

upon estella's request,
the photos. :)
KAP after esprimere yday.
ive been tired and drained of my energy. :(

2008-01-21T17:11:00.000+08:00

been kinda long since i updated.

so here goes :)

after esprimere last wk,

jeff drove all of us to circuit rd for that legendary vegetarian fried oyster again. :)

-drools-

LOL. so yeah on the way there, cher marisa gerald ts rinalldo and i squeezed into his minivan,

and had a hell of an adventure! (cher can testify! :b)

cher managed to sing "一眼瞬间" 3 octaves higher.

jeff's turnings were fast and all, and when we saw a tp, we all had to dodge!

hahaha.

and nicey jeff sent all of us baq!

look at how sweeeeet estella was :D

also, ktt came over to my place haha!

we talked & talked & talked.

lol. and she was nagging abt sleeping earlier.

and my nice fren zc came over to school cos cs wanted to know him. :b

LOLOL.

i was supposed to be copyin stuff while he played his DS but alas!

haha the evil me conquered his DS, leaving the poor guy nothing to do but this..

LOL.

and sunday was sitong's album presale. :)

we took some club fotos with her. :)

do they look alike?

thereafter was lunch/dinner with marisa ts clemen yongfa

& shopping with indo-millionaire cum champ marikisa. :b

the media really knows when best to strike,

making a person as poor as a pauper.. :b

but when you really love someone,

who really cares abt the money anyway? :b

FANNFANNFANN! :D

my favourite.

2008-01-14T03:20:00.000+08:00

JUS' bday celebration

her fancy hats party was held at Frujch, SMU SIS Basement. :D

though laopo and i didnt quite know anyone there,

(besides cheryl from sn),

we had fun! :)

her cake was really cool! it was a 3D hat-shaped cake.

and les, WE MISS YOU!

haha cant wait for the gathering with lyd darling!

yay! :)

and this is what you get from sunday ibm lectures.

afternoon tea. LOL.

im so gonna catch this !

KEIRA KNIGHTLEY! :b

2008-01-12T01:24:00.003+08:00

peg's 21st-bday song

2008-01-12T01:24:00.001+08:00

peg's birthday kiss :b

2008-01-11T21:11:00.000+08:00

all the 87-ers are turning 21 in 2008. :)

1st step into adulthood.. happy for all of them.

its really amazing how a few brains can come up with so many amazing surprises. :)

BEE's surprise-050108

it was cool, the planning and all,

(especially the proposal lol. :b)

d msn meeting, where skelby rarely had almost full attendance.

everyone was rli excited for the 1st baby in the clique.

we followed the "BEE" theme, black & yellow and honey. :)

everyone contributed in their own little humble ways,

that made the whole thing so eventful and sweet. :D

went down to her place while she was having some school

event to deco her place and prepare.

and even got her parents(who were really thoughtful and co-operative :) )

to collaborate with us. :)

some hiccups present here and there.

but perfection usually lies in its imperfection. :)

and we really had fun in her humble cosy lovely abode. :D

SKELBY rockssss!

look how sweet lovely's smiling!

for the full coverage,

visit bee's blog! :b

PEG's surprise-100108

next up: this sweetheart of mine who had described me fondly to her friends as "known her for

the longest time, been thru a lot with her, we know each other's crushes, shared our

moments of embarrassments, blahblah.."

of course dear, we even shared our diary entries! :D

yes, PEGGY, youre the girl man! :)

i guess we really shocked her to the core,

especially with mich laopo's meticulous planning,

and our ingenious ideas combined together to form something really memorable for peg.

THE PLAN:

-surprise her at her office

-gave her a hot gorgeous makeover with that dress, heels,
makeup(& angel's wings)

-cabbed down to timbre, whr she saw her stnicks,
poly frens & lecturer :D (and peg was so touched she teared!)

-the live singer singing songs dedicated to peg

-the bakerzin cake :)

-the lovely scrapbook with polaroids and msgs

-flowers! & a bday kiss :p

ok even though the last segment was the hiccup of the night, sorry, my bad!

BUT i made it up by finding another presenter.

that underwriter, dear! :D

(his card said: "call me! ps:you smell good.")

lol.

all in all, i hope peg enjoyed it too!

-blows my flying kiss to you-

hope you find mr. right soon! :D

avp2 with zc-060108

okay let me be a lil random here.

lol. we were cam-whoring and its after several failed attempts that we got an okay photo!

but its in my W910i which, has malfunctioned for the third time in 2 months. :(((

liane sheryl weichee dears' visit to SIM

haha these lovelies were so cute, they actually wanted to tour SIM.

(besides chee dear lol.)

so yah then we decided to go sunset way to have "lunch"..

kinda lost our way.

but yes managed to find it.

and apparently only one cafe was open.

so yah. lol.

after that meal, we took a bus down to bishan whr we met mich laopo! :D

lol. it was just an interesting and fun 4diligence mini-outing. :b

(some pics in my phone too :( )

thats abt all for events with pics. :)

lol. tmr's jus' hat celebration and that just reminds me that i still DONT HAVE ONE.

lol. HELP!

2008-01-11T02:26:00.000+08:00

the stars shone upon ever so brightly.
the river calm and almost serene.
the melodic voice which was accompanied by sensual acoustics.
the beautiful newly turned twentyone year old's tears of joy.
was wad kept my tears up thr.

it all seemed blatant. just tonight.

some ppl seek attn,
and forever think that theyre right.
the worse of all,
is to break promises on grounds that the other party means harm.

get a life.

you just want to boost your ego killing mine.

loads to update. but no mood and time to.

HAPPY 21ST BDAY PEG, BEE & JUS darlings! :D

dick lee! :)

2008-01-04T00:58:00.001+08:00

just back from watching "beauty world" musical with ktt. saw dick lee!!! :)
super nice! esp this song called "single in singapore". so humorous. :) got his autograph on the soundtrack. yay! :)

Pigeon Mobile

2008-01-02T00:23:00.001+08:00

found the funny marketing lecture commercial! :b

2008-01-01T18:22:00.000+08:00

met gossipshit* for the last time in 2007 at cafeiguana. :)

then stayed over at peg's house! yay!
she looks like my 乌龟博士 with my new geek tool! =b

peg's hammy! :)

happy 2008! =)

lets hope its a fantastic beginning for everyone!
and yay i finally booked my 21st bday celebration chalet.
29th feb! (cos all weekends taken :( )

2007-12-31T02:12:00.001+08:00

annual stayover :)

my two dears(kt&ll) are seated on the sofa watching some golden horse award winning show,
"three times".

we anticipated some action, but somehow its like......

a mime,

and when they speak, its in hokkien..

so i decided to blog,

and ll's commenting that "if you have insomnia you can watch..." ;p

haha yay let me update on wad happened yesterday! :))

went for fish leong's concert after coming back from my msia day trip! :)

i still rmb gg with ganbee to watch her when she came for

some complimentary promo concert last dec?

and i was still sore abt not attending her concert 2 yrs ago

on 5th march 5th march!!! :( lol.

so i was reallyyyyy happy to see her sing yday. :)

the audience were all very meek and gentle but

they immersed themselves in her songs and enjoyed every part of it,

i believe. :)

even the ah gongs went with the ah mas, hand-in-hand, so sweet.

as usual, it was nothing extremely spectacular,

only her mesmerising vocals and rli romantic backdrops,

and of cos, the lovely her! :)))

shes so cuteee!! :D

awwwww!

i will so go again if she comes nx yr! :)

and thanks zc! :) for accompanying me and all.

too bad too bad the photo's gone. :b :b :b

check this out:
Dear Suyee,
Here is your horoscope for Monday,
December 31:
You've got to clear away all the deadwood
from the year and get ready for the good stuff
that's coming soon. It's a great time to clear
out old emotional baggage --
or just clean out your closets!

so true! :D

cs just called to tell me my exam tymtable.
ohmeohmy.
bad bad news.
cf ibm same day. sighsighsigh. :(

2007-12-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

was supposed to mit kaitian and lilian at 1030 for breakfast,
but slept at 4am, so decided to ask kt to gimme a wake up call.
she gave a first call at 937am, and i woke but drifted back to dreamland.
she called agn 20 mins ltr, asking me if i was awake,
and i was like "yaa will wake soon..."
haha den i heard her mumbling "come to your living room now"
and i was thinking.. oh i must be dreaming..
so i hung up.. walked with deranged steps outta my room to get ready,
and hocus-pocus!
i saw my house door open!!!
and they were outside.
OMG!

haha, so sweet! delivered yummy 爱心牌 macs breakfast to me. :))

thanks darlings for cheering me up. love you guys! :)

christmas was a closure to me for many things.
and it was hard... and may persist..
but im glad i stood for my own principles this one time.
but im glad to noe there're ppl there who cherishes me!
thanks! :)

and they were talking abt campus yummy!!! so embarrassing!
even darryl's cousin recognises me!

因为把你当最要好的朋友，
所以才坦白地向你表达我的内心感触，
但你却不了解，如果想继续恶意地解读我的意思，
我也没办法。。
毕竟,我们都快称得上是成年人了。。
你也该知道我有多珍惜你这个朋友。。

2007-12-25T18:48:00.000+08:00

ESPRIMERE XMAS PARTY TMR

Time: 2pm onwards
Venue: cher's place
How to get there: MRT: yew tee or choa chu kang (NS5 or NS4) and
then take bus service 307 from bus stop or interchange respectively.
(Once on 307 give cher a call)

rmb to bring along your xmas gift for gift exchange!

2007-12-24T18:08:00.000+08:00

知已

还好变成了知已
起码随时看到你
哭泣或欢天喜地
可以陪你

让这个故事继续
结局我们都如此好奇
肯定可以一起有惊喜
魔力或奇迹
让它随意上映

可惜不能靠得太近
但仍心存感激
好散好聚我们都庆幸
一时很难去解释这样微妙的距离
也许我们都很满意

感情是我们一向来很尊重的事情
现在就紧紧的维系彼此关系
长大了也许对于某种感动的东西
一点点都珍惜

还好变成了知已
起码随时看到你
哭泣或欢天喜地
可以陪你

是没有差到哪里
相处的还算和气
就差那一句
我爱你

可惜不能靠得太近但仍心存感激
好散好聚我们都庆幸
一时很难去解释这样微妙的距离
也许我们都很满意
感情是我们一向来很尊重的事情
现在就紧紧的维系彼此关系
长大了也许对于某种感动的东西
一点都珍惜

都得来不易
比如像你

one of amei's song. depicts how i feel today.
christmas makes me sad.
especially this year.
past few christmases had been good.

but sy wont be sad for long.
sy will learn to let go.
and thereafter, no more ambiguity.

met up with josephine after close to a year since she left for melbourne?
it feels good talking to her.
so happy she completed her masters! :)

i thank her for always steering me towards the right path,
and making me believe i am not worthless,
or that i should nv compromise my principles or values.

she's right.
never get together with anyone for the wrong reasons.
never marry for the wrong reasons.
one day mr right will just appear..

smile sy! :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)
its over when its over.

2007-12-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BDAY :)

mum's bday today!

went ps to have pizza hut brunch at 430pm.

lol. siblings and mum were all famished by then. :)

yupp and thereafter met lucas bear and went the ark to support tong. :)

got her a huge taz tgt with cher lucas sam and ts for her bday.

hope she likes it! :D

and yeaaaaa!

sweet mum bought this for me. :)

caught the movie with zc last mon.

NICEEEEE! :D

and yay turkey & honey-baked ham.. im coming!!! :))