Thursday, March 02, 2006
i wanted to be strong.
really.
i told myself i wouldn't cry.
i did.
but i really couldnt help it.
why?????
why is it that im left with no choice??
i planned to do it agn, but i cant.
and i dun hav a choice to do what i want.
and ppl kip asking,
"how did u do?"
i really cant face all these.
i didn't attend lects for a year,
but i didnt choose to.
can you all get your facts rite???
i did not do that on purpose.
why did u make it sound lik i did?
and when i was left with noone to help me,
did anyone bother?
when i said i was not prepared to do it,
did anyone listen?
why pass such a judgement on me?
tears just keep flowing,
i told myself they cant..
but it doesnt help.
especially when youre alone.
why do you still not scold me, or mock at me like the others do?
this is making me feel worse.
im sorry,
i really am...
to all dose who had faith in me.
i noe it wasnt my best.
but i was left with no choice.
i wanted to fail gp,
so i cud retake.
but i suppose its all fate.
ive nv done so badly all my life.
stop telling me i have many routes to take,
none of which is wad i really want to do.
stop telling me its nothing,
bcus you all dun feel it.
stop telling me youre sad,
or that you have no future,
especially if you did better than me.
i need time...
to heal this wound.
it stabbed me deep and hard.
i will recover..
i will pursue my dreams.
i wont let you put me down.

sy. 1:07 PM