Monday, May 28, 2007







双人床


sy. 3:21 AM

Saturday, May 26, 2007


met chee yday to k and shop. (:

so long since ive met up with her..
lol.. we had fun shopping around & catching up.
looks like almost everyone's caught up with work.
and their usual quote, "i dont even have time to go to the toilet.
sometimes i only go once in a day."
wow..
wish it was back then, but wells, cherish this moment now sy!

after hours of bumming ard and trying loadsa clothes
(cos chee claims trying is free lol)
mich laopo finally joined us after her work. (:
it was ard nine plus when the poor girl came to find us.
and cus she worked OT,
she could claim some dinner expense and cab expense..
and she gave us a treat at pizza walker. .
we had rli good food and cocktail..
yummm (:
we were talking of plans to go overseas tgt or mayb even to live
tgt when we're old.
lol.
and yday orchard had their monthly midnight
shopping sales and so it was bustling with hordes of ppl.
den laopo gave me a lift home and i realised my white sling bag has become red! sigh!
chee said colgate would help but it didnt..
the scrubbing didnt too!
and i dropped the whole lock oustside the door when i came baq and the key broke!
was stuck in the lock.
sigh.
was qt an unlucky day.

wadever it is,
i need a job soon!!!!!

lol.
met up with shumin that day with sitong.
so happy for that girl! shes gonna be doing accountancy in NTU.
miss her so much.
reminds me of the good old SN days.

uncle collected his new car that day and urged me to get my license soon..
i thk..
everyone rli pins high hopes on me.
i wish i could too...

sangee i miss you!
watch pirates soon k!
but now sch holidays everywhr is bombarded with kids and kids and kids.
lol.

i dun rli understand why more and more ppl are telling me to quit being
too nice nowadays.
perhaps its because i noe how lousy it feels when one is helpless.
or when one feels alone.
or when one is turned down.
i seriously need someone to teach me how to say no sometimes.
someday, i believe god will grant me a better life if i help more ppl....

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sy. 9:20 PM

Wednesday, May 23, 2007





met kaitiantian(lol) on sunday for the play "off centre" at esplanade..
as usual we were late so we only managed to sit outside the studio to watch the plasma tv,
but im so proud we were the "last women sitting".
lol..
well, i admit the screen was a lil small,
we couldnt catch wad was going on cus it was too soft,
but luckily thr was d book to guide us. :)
kinda enjoyed the play,
though the ending was not the fairytale kind that was happy-ever-after,
i thk it reflects deviance in society and how ppl can accept it,
only if it does not befall them..
it hurts. cus i can feel for it.
sigh.

anyhows, kt and i went shopping agn! (: hehe..
bought this very nice dress to of course add to my wardrobe collection probably. :b

met sitong today to collect my lappie and to accompany her study.
haha. its 5.50 am now so maybe i shud say yday?
oh and i bumped into monkey dear! (:
yeaps and im burning jiang shi now~!
lolol.
cant wait to start watching!
oh yah and we bought a top each, haha.
the supposedly hilarious kind.
hers says "i am your last chance"
and mine "finding someone".
lol.
wonder if il ever wear it, probably when i cant find any clothes to wear again.

and i hope both hc and d can have a speedy speedy recovery! sigh..
ppl are all getting sick these days.

ohwells, i better start doing up esprimere accts b4 it gets lost agn,
my lappie needs recovery and must back-up everything. sians.

thrs so much to do,
yet theres nothing much to do.
haha. mans im sleepy i guesss.
uttering nonsense.
lets hope i can work!
it is after exams that our unsatiable hunger for material and hedonistic pursuits strike.

and yeah thrs exco meeting this sunday,
but sth i dun understand is why it is held in orchard..
haha. :)

peg peg: im always here, always free. until im not free lol. so quik jio me! :)

sy. 5:35 AM

Tuesday, May 22, 2007


presenting the soreloser LTA!!! lolol. (kidding :b)
cheer up and study hard!!

sy. 11:18 PM

Monday, May 21, 2007


from everdearest junior siggy who got this from the stnicks diary this year:

A Creed to Live By

dont undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others
it is because we are different that each of us is special
dont set your goals by what other people deem important
only you know what is best for you
dont take for granted the things closest to your heart
cling to that as you would your life, for without them life is meaningless



dont let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or in the future
by living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life
dont give up when you still have something to give
nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying
dont be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect
it is the fragile thread that binds us to each other



dont be afraid to encounter risks
it is by taking chances that we learn to be brave
dont shut love out of your life by saying its impossible to find
the quickest way to receive love is to give love
the fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tightly
and the best way to keep love is to give it wings



dont dismiss your dreams
to be without dreams is to be without hope
to be without hope is to be without purpose
dont run through life so fast you forget where you've been
but also know where you're going
life is not a race
but a journey to be savoured every step of the way



Nancye Sims

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sy. 10:58 PM

Saturday, May 19, 2007


Notice from LSE about the 15 May exam:
http://www.lse.ac.uk/collections/LSEExternalStudy/news.htm
http://www.londonexternal.ac.uk/current_students/programme_resources/lse/sociology_letter.html

Dear Students who sat for the Principles of Sociology exam on 15 May,
We are aware that Section C of the exam only provided a choice of 4 questions
when there were supposed to be six and the last question on Organisations
which students should answer was one of the two questions missing from the exam paper.

The LSE became aware of the situation only after SIM told them yesterday evening.
Apparently there was a printing error when the paper was produced in London.
The printing error was not picked up and affected candidates in Singapore, Hong Kong and a
few other countries. We are all sorry that this happened. It really should not have. The University will issue a statement about this on the UOL website later today or tomorrow.

Mrs Gosling would like to assure students that no one will be disadvantaged.
She has asked me to express her concern and that she hopes students will stay focused on
your other papers and do well in your other exams. Don't worry about the Sociology paper
now that it is over.

Thank you.

Yours faithfully,
Sylvia Yeo (Ms)
Manager, Higher Education

sy. 12:40 PM


yayness!
i mad!
jumping for that tingling joy at least for now =)

EXAMS ARE OVER!
ladidums.

though its flunk flunk flunk flunk i thk.
mind blockkkk!
but ohwells. its over!

though part of me stil fls down somewhere,
i have to move on!
(p.s.: nizar you too!)

to the rest out thr,
jiayou jiayou jiayou! (:

was such a joke when we read the new paper and saw the article abt ppl walkin outta expo during soci paper cus the option question was missed out by uol..
as quoted by them,
"they are still recovering from their experience in Hall 7, Singapore Expo, on Tuesday."
"To the students' horror, one of the two questions missing was the one they had spent the
entire year preparing for."
"After spending countless nights studying hard for the exam, it seemed they were staring at certain failure."
"It is instead a case of confusion all round."
haiz.. is that good or bad?
ohwells, they were rather sensational.. :b
lets hope i dont screw this.

looks like those up there(gods, mr nice) is blessing all of us from above..
i pray mr nice is fine, and happy. =)

accts was kinda hard, mann...
last yr was the first yr they revised this mod and the paper was so easy but not this yr's!
they even asked us to list and elaborate on this required text
(unfortunately ive never touched it) abt managerial methods or sth..

but, ITS OVER.
i have 3 months, to recover from all these hurt.
volunteers to help?

tong and cher scared the wits outta me when i saw them in the lift after my paper!
thanks dears for that surprise!

and thanks to ching and darryl for everything!!
and everyone out thr, whom ive mugged with b4 and hu believed in me,
like gary, tai an, teck sheng, wenfu, kai tian, tingfeng!
JIAYOU ppl! ((:

sy. 12:33 AM

Sunday, May 13, 2007


mr nice,
though you were just an acquaintance i met everytime we had any cca head functions,
you would always smile & wave when you saw me along the corridors in aj.
even though were not close friends,
d news that you were gone in the taiwan jet crash incident made me feel really very sad..
life...
can be just so fragile..
so unexpected.

rest in peace.
your smile will never fade from our hearts.

sy. 7:46 PM

Wednesday, May 09, 2007


just had econs paper today..
i dunno wad to feel..
but i thk i tried my best...

stats tmr..
and im only at normal distribution now at 10.30pm..
shucks!
lets hope i can at least finish reading thru d notes..

JIAYOU ppl! ((:

paradox...
i wan next friday to come quik..
but some part of me doesnt want it to come too quickly..
since today was econs paper,
and there is no such thing as paradox in economics,
then i shall accept it. =)

sy. 10:21 PM

Monday, May 07, 2007


miss josephine too!
whenever i have a talk with her,
i jus seem to feel more enlightened..
this was her msn advice to me. =)

Josephine:
seems like u still have lotsa self-blame, guilt n sense of not being good enuf
i juz wanna say tat many a times, life doesn't go the way we want,
tat we will encounter distressing situations n pple will hurt us
thru their words or actions
this is inevitable n itz part n parcel of being alive
but we have a choice regarding how we want 2 respond...
reali... it might sound simplistic n many times i forget tat as well...
h/w i found tat if i make a conscious choice wrt being aware of
myself (feelings n thoughts)
i'm beta able 2 manage myself

i like this saying:
god, grant me the serenity 2 accept the things i cannot change, the courage 2 change the things i can, and the wisdom 2 know the difference!
very true n powerful
consider how u can respond 2 any situation in a way which works best 4 u


thanks gal! if you ever chance upon this,
i thank you from the bottom of my heart.
take care in melbourne!
i'd be thr to leech soon! (:

sy. 1:01 AM

Sunday, May 06, 2007







is over-crying a symptom of depression?

i dunno.

anyhows, my bro is out for four days cus hes on ns MC..
how untimely. he's booking in on wed morn,
which marks the beginning of the exams,
and hes just tooooooo noisy.
blasts the whole tv and theatre system when hes the only one watching tv,
and taking away my fan.
how inconsiderate can one get?
to thk during his A levels,
i jus kept really quiet.
my dad scolded me even when i started talking over the phone.
why do i just not receive the same treatment?

and i feel,
i must learn how to be selfish...
if not things are always taken away from me..
if not id get really depressed..
if not il feel that things that come my way just slip away from my fingers..
and il assume it does.

i like helping others..
but when things happen to me,
its not that i expect others to help..
but its just.. sad...
perhaps i have already been conditioned to feel that i must fight everything alone.
or maybe im unwanted in this world..
i feel that i can only take choices given to me in life.
i cannot choose.
and that includes love.

i admit i do not have any merits.
i have more shortcomings.
and sometyms,
life is just too long for someone like me who does not deserve it..

ok just treat the above as nothing.
take it with a pinch of salt.
i just wanted to pen how i feel right now..
met kaitian love yday! (:
i miss her..
we were trying to solve this sudoku that was kinda frustrating.
time spent with her is rli precious.
i miss gossipshit, skelby..
i miss life b4 uni..

was at IMM with st cher and ts today..
to see tank.
i thk he looks like a very nice guy.
thanks to ts, we managed to have a pic taken with him.. =)
but yah it was only a lil tym with him cus of his bz schedule..

sy. 11:34 PM

Friday, May 04, 2007



sy. 5:01 PM


today is "cooping" day,
trouble haunts.
& cooping therapy helps.
at least it does, for me.

yes ive only started on econs,
and no i havent started macro.
if you thk, "she's gonna fail definitely",
i dont disagree with you.
keep it to yourself.

no im not finding excuses.
because you'll never noe how difficult it is for me.
when you lose your ability to do the only thing you can do.
and living seems hard..

while you all have time to study, crap, seek fun, court mischief,
i have to deal with crap,
with ppl who only see money in their eyes,
with appeals..

my life kinda sucks totally now..
& of cus, i thank my dearest supportive friends.
i know life would definitely be meaningless without you all.
and my family..

sy. 3:23 PM


something thats gonna happen on sunday would have lifted up my spirits a thousand times from what i normally would feel,
but, somehow, this is happening to me again..
mummy,
i really dunno how to say this to you..
its all my fault..
all i can say is, im sorry..

i know sorry is not a cure to d situation,
but thats the only thing i can do,
i cant promise i wont let you down,
but i sincerely thank you for encouraging me so much,
believing in me,
as well as to tolerate everything thats going on in my life,
which, apparently, isnt too good..

now that things aint that good for you & i,
i really dunno how to tell you this..
im just useless..
=(

sorry for being your daughter..

眼泪像断了线的珍珠般落了下来

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sy. 1:37 AM

Thursday, May 03, 2007


I'm With You
Avril Lavigne

I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now

There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I...
I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know

Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I...
I'm with you
I'm with you

Oh why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I...
I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I...
I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I...
I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm with you...

sy. 10:53 PM