Tuesday, January 30, 2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKq6_vjrxMo
lame.... :b

sy. 12:51 AM

Monday, January 29, 2007
beatrice hsu wei lun passed away..
so young, so pretty.
so worthy of living,
more than me. =(
so sad..

didnt go school for lect today.
diarrhoea agn.. and all other complications..

was inspired by what josephine told me about how ppl change every second and how it is impossible to go back to what we were even a second ago, because we're influenced by mixed feelings all the tym by each and every(including the minute) happenings around us. Feelings are so complex and fast-changing that it is almost indescribable.

she used this story osho had written in one of his philosophical books..

Buddha was meditating under a tree with his disciples when a man came and spat on him. Buddha remained still and did not say or do anything. (i shud thk so? lol) the next day, the man returned and Buddha's disciple wanted to hit him. The man was at Buddha's feet but wasn't doing anything. Buddha then stopped his disciple and asked him why he wanted to hit the man. his disciple explained that it was because the man had spat on Buddha the day before. Buddha then answered- "but the man here now is not the same as he was yesterday."

indeed. =)

went for cousin's bday celebration.
kids nowadays are really fortunate. =)

sy. 11:49 PM

Sunday, January 28, 2007
chersweets:
i have a confession to make.
heh. i initially tot you were a very fierce person when i first saw you in school.
after getting down to really noe u,
i must say youre really very nice, caring and fun to be with. thanks for listening to all that i have to say and helping me thk of constructive methods of looking at 'it' as a social issue, thanks for making me feel all comfortable ard you as well as giving me encouragement such as examples of ppl hu've led fulfilling lives despite all that theyre gg through. and also, i wna say that youre a beautiful person, and your beauty comes from within. be more confident of yourself because you aint that terrible person you always claim to be. i believe you have every right to pursue whatever u like and that is never wrong. also, like what a friend told me b4, if you like somebody, dont juz crush, but hit him hard with the truth! =D i noe it can be tough but try sweets to talk to him, begin small. and dont ever let such small issues in this aspect of life affect your mentality towards this issue, whatever the outcome may be. take it as a learning process! and im growing with you too! i believe tong and val and all your frens would too cus we all love you to bits! =)

on a sidenote, went tpy kbox today for a supposed esprimere outing. but in d end after countless ppl cuden make it, there was only chersweets, hanhui and i left. but its okay cus we did hav fun. esp singing for chersweets. =)

then we went to watch kungfu mahjong even thou i badly wanted to watch "happy birthday" lol. (cus its fann's bday-thou i noe theres no link wahahha) so anw, we went velocity at novena after that and window-shopped ard b4 having pepperlunch.. chersweets and i were in d cam-whore spirits today and so we eventually influenced hh to take loads and loadsa pics with us. lol.

den cus chersweets insisted on taking neos(:b), we went down to bishan after that to do so. went swensens to have d yummylicious banana crumble and it was on hh lol. =)

we talked and crapped a lot and b4 leaving, chersweets and i went to the ladies in which chersweets was talking vehemently in d cubicle beside mine. and when i was done, i realised there were 2 aunties outside paying close attn to wad she was saying, and i dint noe how to inform her. (tot of all possiblities, like shouting out to her but it would be a lil awkward since she rattled non-stop and i cuden exactly make out her words; or calling her hp but decided she'd scream even louder) and so i decided to walk out to wait for her. hahaha. and poor sweets tot i was inside and she continued her self-talk til she realised that someone else was in d cubicle i occupied. and we all had a good laugh! hahha. =)

had a weird weird dream yday that seemed sooooo real.
i almost cuden wake up.

funfunfun. but not disciplined enough. ARGH.
tmr's gna be gone agn agn and agn!

sy. 2:51 AM

Saturday, January 27, 2007
http://www.panic-anxiety.com/celebs.asp

Celebrities with anxiety and panic attacks
You are not alone...
Sometimes it is just nice to know that we are not alone with this condition. Even celebrities suffer from anxiety. Late nights, bad dietary habits, money and work stress, long days and jet lag take their toll on anyone regardless of age. Anxiety sufferers are getting younger and younger, the condition can strike anyone at any time.
This is a list of famous people who are reported to have suffered from anxiety.
Nicole Kidman (actress)
Kim Basinger (actress)
Delta Burke (actress)
Donny Osmond (entertainer)
Winston Churchill
John Cougar Mellancamp (musician, actor)
Ann Wilson (Singer - Rock Group 'Heart')
Winona Ryder (actress)
Marie Osmand (entertainer)
Cher (singer, actress)
Beverly Johnson (supermodel)
Roseanne Barr (comedian - actress)
Michael Jackson (singer)
Naomi Judd (singer)
Susan Powter (tv host)
Nicholas Cage (actor)
Sissy Spacek (actress)
Johnny Depp (actor)
Sally Field (actress)
Alanis Morisette (singer)
Burt Reynolds (actor)
Courtney Love (singer - actress)
Naomi Campbell (supermodel)
David Bowie (singer)
Carly Simon (singer)
Aretha Franklin (singer)
Lani O'Grady (actress)
Michael English (singer)
Sir Laurence Olivier (actor)
Earl Campbell (football player)
Al Kasha (songwriter)
Emily Dickinson (poet)
Marty Ingels (comedian)
John Madden (sports announcer)
Leila Kenzle (actress)
Willard Scott (weatherman)
Shecky Greene (comedian)
Olivia Hussey (actress)
Oprah Winfrey (host - claims she had just one attack)
Tom Snyder (host)
John Candy (comedian - actor)
Sam Shepard (playwright)
Isaac Asimov (author - educator)
Charles Schultz (cartoonist)
Dean Cain (actor)
Barbra Streisand (singer - actress)
Anne Tyler (author)
James Garner (actor)
Jim Eisenreich (baseball)
Pete Harnisch (baseball)
Nikola Tesla (inventor)
Charlotte Bronte (author)
Alfred Lord Tennyson (poet)
Sigmund Freud (psychiatrist)
John Steinbeck (author)
W.B. Yeats (poet)
Sir Isaac Newton (scientist)
Abraham Lincoln (president)
Barbara Gordon (filmmaker)
Robert Burns (poet)
Edvard Munch (artist)
John Stuart Mill (philosopher)
Calista Flockhart (Ally McBeal)
Lucille Ball (actress, singer)
Jordan and Jonathon Knight (new kids on the block)
Dave Stewart of the Eurythmics (singer)

ohman...

http://www.anxietypanic.com/articles/1014.html

cher and sangee.. lets materialise some plans after my exams! =)

sy. 4:04 AM

Wednesday, January 24, 2007
我好烦啊!!!
好痛苦, 懊恼, 却不知道要向谁倾诉 ...
我好辛苦, 好害怕...

i really dunno how to convey how and what i feel to others now..
when i dun feel well,
i have a tendency to not say anything.
i feel uncomfortable, yet i dunno how to put it across.
i duwan anyone to worry abt me.
its really miserable..

celebrated peg's bday on sun..
met in town den had my pepperlunch :D
den came my house for karaoke and scary movie3. (lol to cut cost)

met tong on mon and i was latelatelate cus i tot it was a sunday and i was still sleeping when she called me!
OHMAN..
den saw chersweets at sch and three of us went..
err... westmall..
lol i dun frequent the west except sch,
so i kept thinking they brought me to lot one til like ard an hour b4 we left the place?
til chersweets told me. hahah.
went arcade, den shopped ard, we saw many of kang&lau soft toys ard :b
yeapps and chersweets had to scare me with that topic.
the expressway journey seemed like forever and damn creepy.
and yah! we took pics! and bought the ASSES uniform-sitong, suyee and s-herlynn! hahahahaha...
yeap and some bear iron-ons and my cute cute lamb one! we plan to wear it on thurs or sth? LOL.

and i gt home and did my globalisation essay till 5am and slept til 7am! ohman today was a damn shagged day at school. i bet this is gna be chersweets' favourite book. =))

went kimage student to cut hair today with chersweets/CHERKANG=) and ching today. cheap, but scary. hahah. imagine a whole lot of ppl watching while youre having your hair cut, and i sorta regretted cus now i hav no hair! ITS SUPER SHORT! and i had to tie it up to convince myself that the hair was ok! omgomgomg! den walked down to bugis with them and cher said she wants to write this song called "one missed call" and make me her music producer! LOL. and theres a rap that goes, "papaya watermelon, watermelon papaya, cherkang, lau ts.........." ok i thk i better not go on, afterall cherkang quoted to me, "if youre shy/demure/innocent, then im a virgin." LOL. hmmm.. ponders. hahahaaa. and we bought this really retro red hairband to go with our ASSES uniform. (just that i dun have hair now :'( )

ching and i then walked to d busstop near my place from bishan.
had a long talk with her.
and ya d & hc: i wish for u guys all the best. sincerely. =)

okok, these are some fotos taken during the superstar shoot.
damn shagged.
tata. =)

sy. 2:11 AM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007
just back from watching superstar female finals recording with tong. =D
thk its rli veh nice!
hahahaha and yes yes yes she won! LOL.
i managed to catch a glimpse of cher d newly proclaimed 'sugarcupcakehoneypie'! =)
wheee photos will come latersss. :b

sy. 12:09 AM

Friday, January 12, 2007
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sy. 3:01 AM
hahaha a lot of tong! and shoes which my grandad gave me as my first bday gift! =) only found out today. but its too late. i miss him! Posted by Picasa

sy. 2:57 AM
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sy. 2:56 AM
WHOA THIS IS SUPER DUPER VEXING.
i typed a super long entry and its gone its gone.
thanks to blogger.

juz realized that d prelims tymtable was out.

28feb-econs
5mar-maths1
6mar-stats1
7mar-sociology
8mar-accounts

OMGOMGOMG.not cus its intensive or wadever but but BUT
HOW CAN THEY PUT A PAPER ON 5th MAR?
ive nv had a paper on that day for my whole life..
and to imagine d nx 2 yrs!!

happy happy bday to beebee and peggy!
sorry peg dear! rli rli sorry and to gossipshit!
next weekend k!!

been bz packing house, settling a lotta stuff, ll kt coming to stayover, chee visiting, out with hana minghao, waiting 6hours in sch for a lecture and having another d next morning, having diarrhoea and all.
in short-life is like a rollercoaster ride. (really dunno how to express my feelings now)

went relc to pay for exam fees with hc tong and darryl.
den acc tong taian and tecksheng for d talentquest audition.
LOL tong and i had an exciting 5mins makeover at fareast cus she was dressed in t shirt and berms!
hahahha
den st ta ts and i went to eat bento at fareast and we kinda dragged them to take neos!=)
so fun hahaha cus i thk theyve nv taken it.
and cher dearest, YOU ARE MISSED!
haahhaa.

we hav a lot to share with you.

lilian: jerry yan's voice is stil as sexy right? wahahaha. this years skelby lao yusheng youre in charge!

joc: yupp mos was qt fun. hahahha. howre u!

Juzme=):thanks dear for alw being there for me, u dunno how much i appreciate it.

tong: im glad to hav found you in sim. honestly. =)

sometyms when it gets bad,
i feel so bad.
i dunno and am tired of explaining to the world.
i feel like a burden!
ive nv really said it out str so publicly but haiz.
i didnt mean to.
if i had a choice,
i wuden wan anyone in d world to accomodate me.

rena: thanks for your beeeeeg hug! =)
hc st: thanks! was affected but yah ignore me. im radical. :b

there was singing club tday and yes we kinda had fun.
took a lotta videos and sitong playing with the dead cockroach!
hahaha den dere was dinner in canteen!
st and i stayed to mug but haiz no avail.
LOL.
it was thru a talk with wenfu that made me realise a lotta stuff.
seemed like he juz gave me a tight wake up slap.
110 days.
hahahha.

I AM GOING TO FIND MY DIRECTION IN LIFE.
no more brooding.
let "it" kill me.
less of hedonistic pursuits.
i wanna be occupied.
ppl hu are reading this, pls help!
6 hours to econs lect!

sy. 1:47 AM

Saturday, January 06, 2007
"With discontinuation of these agents, however, patients should be closely monitored for recurrence of symptoms, as the rates of relapse are very high, especially for shorter-acting agents"
-now i know why.

sy. 3:31 AM