Wednesday, November 26, 2008
it feels so heartening to know that samaritans still exist,
here in our hot sunny little island.

was late for strategy lect yday,
and decided to cab down to sch.
the cab fare turned out to be 12bucks plus,
and i only had a 5dollar and 50 dollar bill in my wallet,
to which the uncle had no change.
and so,
he took 5 dollars from me,
gave me his no,
and told me to make payment today.

i am still in awe of his trust in humanity.
and i thank him for this kind little deed. :)

sy. 1:01 PM

Sunday, November 23, 2008
life's lessons indeed are experiences to learn from.

friendship used to, and still, means a whole lot to me.
as long as someone asks and it is within my means,
i would do whatever i can to help the person.

perhaps i've been handicapped in certain aspects of life,
a tad more than the rest,
that is why i tend to treasure people and things alike very much.

however, there is just a threshold to everything.
there are people you try to regard as friends,
and for years,
you realise that they turn to you only in need.
they do not trust you like friends would.

at times,
i keep wondering why i just cannot say no to such ppl.
and in spite of trying hard to emotionally detach myself to them,
the moment they can just so simply hurt me again,
makes me so down and out.

on many occasions,
ppl ard who've been observing the situation calls me stupid,
because no matter how i hide at home and cry my heart out,
those inflicting the hurt will never bother,
probably enjoying their lives some corner on earth.

too many problems,
just one me.
after the tears,
i jus have to be stronger.
if not for me,
if not for those who love me,
i have to take responsibility of my own imperfection.

so to you,
whether you may read this or not,
close to 3 years of hurt should be more than enough.
i believe you can jus touch your conscience and ask yourself wad has been done.
if you wanna be perfect strangers,
so be it.
if you refuse to think in my shoes,
then i cant do anything abt it.
please dont hurt anyone anymore.

and that was such a regretful innocent lunch i had.

sy. 1:49 AM

Wednesday, November 05, 2008
swinging mood.
inconceivably down.
yet i dun really know why.

sth's very wrong with my laptop and i cannot access blogger, fb, etc..
so here am i stuck in my bro's room using his lappie,
feeling frustrated, and lousy, and the urge of wanting to cry is just so strong.

i have failed in so many aspects.

i am feeling pain physically and emotionally.
everything is just so rough now.

but i am on the other hand happy to have that shoulder to lean on.
take my pain away please.

sy. 9:45 PM