Monday, October 30, 2006
she had overcome her minor defects, only to be defeated by matters of fundamental importance. she had managed to appear utterly independent, when she was, in fact, desperately in need of company. when she entered a room, everyone would turn to look at her, but she almost always ended the night alone, in the convent, watching a TV that she hadn't even bothered to have properly tuned in. she gave all her friends the impression that she was a woman to be envied and she expended most of her energy in trying to behave in accordance with the image she had created of herself.

because of that, she had never had enough energy to be herself, a person who, like everyone else in the world, needed other people in order to be happy. but other people were so difficult. they reacted in unpredictable ways, they surrounded themselves with defensive walls, they behaved just as she did, pretending they didn't care about anything. when someone more open to life appeared, they either rejected them outright, or made them suffer, considering them inferior, ingenuous.

she may have impressed a lot of people with her strength and determination, but where had it left her? in the void. utterly alone. in Villete. in the anteroom of death.

"veronika decides to die"-paulo coelho

sy. 12:23 AM

Saturday, October 28, 2006
've been plagued by series of unfortunate events lately.

arghhhhhhhhhhhh ='(

feel so betrayed..
juz bcos i dun say anything doesnt mean that i like what youre doing.
i trusted you, you did that to me, and can stil act as if nothing has happened..
if its juz for the sake of gaining another fren,
do u mean u chose to forsake me?
i put myself in your shoes,
yet do you even bother about me?
i try to always be there for you,
and yet when i needed a fren you were always not there.
and now this..

haiz....!
and i dropped my fone in d toilet bowl!
like even b4 i used d toilet!
ah and now i cannot even turn it on!
so depressing!
i guess i may lose all my contacts..

okayokay.
shud try to kip d spirit up!
yah went to celebrate mich laopo's bday=)
we had fun!
i miss gossipshit!
hahah but like peg said i mus learn to let go,
ok of cus not in this sense,
ive been applying stuff wrongly these days.
rli tot it was food for thought when she asked,
do you normally stone or does your brain thk of stuffs and kip having recurring random thoughts when you take a long journey on d bus?
okay i thk mines d latter.
but i juz cant help it!

gave tuition to min for 5+hours, hoho..
intensive math revision..
i hope she can absorb all that i said and do well=))

sy. 2:20 AM

Thursday, October 12, 2006
Jacky Cheung - Wishes Under Shooting Stars (Snow Wolf Lake)

hoho we did this at singing club today =) super nice but i stil cant read solfage.

sy. 10:00 PM