Sunday, May 06, 2007





is over-crying a symptom of depression?

i dunno.

anyhows, my bro is out for four days cus hes on ns MC..
how untimely. he's booking in on wed morn,
which marks the beginning of the exams,
and hes just tooooooo noisy.
blasts the whole tv and theatre system when hes the only one watching tv,
and taking away my fan.
how inconsiderate can one get?
to thk during his A levels,
i jus kept really quiet.
my dad scolded me even when i started talking over the phone.
why do i just not receive the same treatment?

and i feel,
i must learn how to be selfish...
if not things are always taken away from me..
if not id get really depressed..
if not il feel that things that come my way just slip away from my fingers..
and il assume it does.

i like helping others..
but when things happen to me,
its not that i expect others to help..
but its just.. sad...
perhaps i have already been conditioned to feel that i must fight everything alone.
or maybe im unwanted in this world..
i feel that i can only take choices given to me in life.
i cannot choose.
and that includes love.

i admit i do not have any merits.
i have more shortcomings.
and sometyms,
life is just too long for someone like me who does not deserve it..

ok just treat the above as nothing.
take it with a pinch of salt.
i just wanted to pen how i feel right now..
met kaitian love yday! (:
i miss her..
we were trying to solve this sudoku that was kinda frustrating.
time spent with her is rli precious.
i miss gossipshit, skelby..
i miss life b4 uni..

was at IMM with st cher and ts today..
to see tank.
i thk he looks like a very nice guy.
thanks to ts, we managed to have a pic taken with him.. =)
but yah it was only a lil tym with him cus of his bz schedule..

sy. 11:34 PM