Friday, February 08, 2008
happy chinese new year! :)

there was a girl who always looked forward to cny eve,
bcos that was the only night where her father,
alongside with her mum and sis and sometimes bro,
would happily immerse in the festive occasion,
squeeze among the preposterous congregation in chinatown,
and feel ecstatic over the economical purchases,
as well as lovely sightings of the fireworks, firecrackers and colourful confetti.

the confetti, simply made her eyes light up in bliss.
she never said so, but she really loved her family.

she very well knew that her condition had encumbered
her family&friends for the past 4 yrs,
but like any other girl, she longed for happiness.
she longed to be able to receive as much as she could give, love.
it was not just once or twice that she had been sneered for her condition.
ppl ard her could not and still cannot accept what had become of her,
including herself.

she tried ways and means to get better,
but always gets weighed down by her failed attempts sometimes.
and it had to occur again, this cny eve.
she told herself she would not cry over this agn,
she fought back her tears,
she heard her dad murmuring,
"带你出门是世界上最麻烦的事情".
and this would probably be imprinted in her heart again,
even though she knew he may have blurted it out at the spur of the moment,
or whether or not he just wanted to rant.
she doesnt deserve to impede others' lives anymore.

to you who will probably never read this:
i dunno why im so affected by you. sometimes i wish i could just ignore you.
but i hope time can give me an answer to everything.
and i know time will.
sometimes i really dunno wad is on your mind.
but i am confused myself.
so you either stay and not play games with me,
or exit my life.

p.s.: rec and skelby, i will post the photos up real soon. (:

sy. 2:18 AM