Tuesday, March 11, 2008
prelims are officially over.
yay! (okays im happy though i didnt even go for a single paper)

anyhows, the past month had been really good for me,
and being the sy who believes that thrs equilibrium in everything in life,
im starting to dread the possibility of bad things occuring in my life.
lol. ok im paranoid, i admit.
but ive not been sleeping well,
with the recurring nightmares and all,
though i must admit i have been sleeping quite a lot.
hibernating while others are studying. :b
but wells, trying to kip my spirits up so i will not feel so gloomy and refuse to hit the books again.

turning 21 didnt mean much until a few days ago,
when sudden realisation of me being legally responsible for my own deeds,
being able to view explicit content legally,
and really just stepping into adulthood just struck me.
then suddenly, i just felt so alone.
i was afraid of the impending remaining time i have that will past so swiftly,
afraid of everything withering,
afraid of losing people.
but then again, i know i shouldnt be so pessimistic.
cos this is a phase in life.
ok sy, pls grow uppp!

i thought the release of A level results would not impact me in any way ever again,
especially since it had been two years.
but i guess its just going to haunt me.
that was really a turning point for many many aspects in my life.
not the results,
but wad led to it.

also, i just wanna leave this for an anonymous fren. :)
i was really sad to hear abt it,
cos i really feel it is difficult for a girl to be so brave,
as to muster up such courage. :D
im really glad you faced your inner self,
and that itself is most impt.
ohgod i feel like such a wimp now.
no goals,
no nothing.
lol.

on a lighter note,
i met up with ε°‘ζ–‡(rinalldo) & δΉ™ηŽ„(marisa) today for a meal in town. :))
it was like a mini belated celebration for rin's bday in feb. :p
kinda sad that they gonna be away for a short while from tmr,
both gg back indo.
but yes we did spend quality time. :)
and yeah KTV soon! :D

sy. 11:23 PM